Asking for a Not So Random Act of Kindness UPDATED 8/14/05

****My Grandma is staying in Monticello and seems to be doing better. The transfusion helped and there is a new sense of hope. I changed the address for anyone that would like to send her a card. She is still in ICU, thanks for the wonderful comments, you are all wonderful****


It's almost 2am and I've done everything that I can to keep my mind and/or my hands busy. I spent the majority of the day crocheting pumpkin hats... 5 in total. We went to Church at 6pm and at about 6:30 my DH's phone rang.

No one calls my DH but me so he didn't even think to turn off the ringer (or rather he forgot). So when the phone rings at a time like this when no one usually calls... you (or I) panic. It was my mom calling from Arkansas. Seems they were transferring my Grandma to ICU.

She's just not improving and today she seemed especially out of it. They will stabilize her and then transfer her to a hospital in Pine Bluff tomorrow. Tonight they gave her a blood transfusion and she is on a respirator, or something similar, to help her breathe because she's having apnea when sleeping. Half of her heart is not working and she is filled with air(?) that is causing her to have trouble taking full breaths.

Tonight she had to stay by herself and she was really afraid to be alone. My heart breaks to think of how frightened she must be. I'm so not ready for her to leave this earth but I can't stand to see her in such pain. She's tired and she is now saying that she is ready to go.

I've probably said this before but my grandma is my best friend aside from my DH. She is the most amazing woman that I've ever known. She is my hero. You cannot describe her without using words like... strong, loving, kind, giving. I've learned a lot from her and I could selfishly wish for more time, she's only 74, I've only had her in my life for 34 years. What about my sons? How can they grow up without her? I know that I would not be the person I am today without her influence, I want that for my boys too.

I know that I have no control over when my grandma leaves us. It's in God's hands.

I can't tell you how much the kind words from you all mean to me. I received a Random Act of Kindness Friday from Sue in Lake Placid. I don't have her blog address here in the dark so I'll post it tomorrow. Everyone has been so wonderful. Thank you.

If anyone would be interested in sending my Grandma a birthday postcard, her birthday is Friday. You could mail it to her at:

Drew Memorial Hospital
778 Scoggin
Monticello, AR 71655
ATTN: Bernice Mitts

I don't know her room number yet but I would hopefully have it by tomorrow. I think it would be special for her to receive mail from all over the world and to know that there are strangers out there thinking & praying about her.

Thanks for listening to me ramble on in the middle of the night. If you have read this far you are a remarkable person and I can't thank you enough for listening. God bless you all!