When it rains, it pours...

An update on my Grandma Bernice... She was placed in the hospital on Monday with an infection in her legs that goes up above her knees, I can't remember what this is called. She had gained 10 pounds in water weight over a weeks time and was not eating. A cardiologist said she has blockages in her legs and upped her meds to try to rectify this. She is on Demerol for the pain and up until just this morning had not been showing signs of improvement. I guess she is a little perkier today so that is hopeful. I talked to her for a minute and it was really hard. I cried, of course. She just sounded so weak and worn out. She reminded me of my Grandma Louella a year ago just before she passed away. If you are a praying person, I would appreciate your prayers for my Grandma.

My Mom and Dad are heading out by car today to Arkansas to be with my Grandma. I wish I were able to go but I just can't afford it. I did just spend time with her over the 4th of July so at least I have that. I felt that trip was important for my boys to be able to get to know their Great-Grandma. She really is a wonderful lady.

While talking to my Dad today he got a call from my Uncle. My Dad's cousin Sue passed away last night or this morning. She had had surgery for an obstructed bowel and then started having more pain. When she went back in they found that her bowel had died. I don't know all the details but my understanding is that she was on life support and my cousin Whitney had to make the decision to stop the life support. I can't imagine having to make that decision and the pain that they must be in.

As I struggle with the emotions that are overcoming me, I'm thankful for being able to tell my story and for the kind words and understanding that I receive from you all. Funny how it's easier to write my feelings here under "anonymity" than it is to voice them to the ones closest to me. Thank you for listening.